Mom’s Search for Meaning

Publication Date: March 28, 2023

Mom’s Search for Meaning:
Grief and Growth After Child Loss
by Melissa M. Monroe


Paralyzed by guilt, grief, and PTSD after her 2-year-old daughter Alice died in her sleep of unknown causes, acupuncturist Melissa Monroe determined not to become a victim in the story of her life. While taking the advice she had given to many grief and trauma patients throughout the years, hoping she could create a meaningful life without closure, she took notes throughout her healing process.

Struggling to advance her timeline beyond that of her daughter’s – and still eager to be the keeper of Alice’s stories – Melissa began to write about Alice’s life and the impact of her death. She became her own lab rat, trying various approaches to healing with the hope that her experience might be helpful to others stuck in a trauma time loop.

As much a study of trauma’s effect on time perception as it is an intimate view into the heart and mind of a bereaved mother, “Mom’s Search for Meaning” shows us that meaning resides in the search itself … with a spoonful of gallows humor to help the medicine go down.

More Praise:

“…This memoir offers insights and hope for healing after the unimaginable.” – Candace Cahill, author of Goodbye Again

“You have never read anything like this before.” – Jo Kaur, founder of Riaan Research Initiative

“This is mom-loss Shakespeare.” – Teresa Strasser, author of Exploiting My Baby and the upcoming Making It Home

“I will never stop thinking about this book. And I am so glad.” – Liz Friedlander, film and television director

“Melissa’s book provides powerful testimony to our vulnerable, complicated and inspirational ability to heal.” – Kim Cookson, Psy.D

EPK available upon request